Yesterday was a wonderful day for me. First Von chatted with me on whatsapp and I realized that I truly, deeply miss her.
Secondly, bestie Serene came down to visit me at my workplace. Even though it was just a wave hi and an SMS bye, it was good to see her again and her smile. I’m constantly amazed that she can smile so brilliantly after being through so much and I admire her strength. It’s also good to know that her current Beau is so supportive and that they are happy together. I hope that we’ll meet up soon to catch up since it has been ages since we’ve met.
Another friend that I miss would be Mr. Voldemort who is currently holding my book hostage as I’m holding his. Voldemort has begun a new life as a student with a new group of friends and I’m sure he’s having fun. But I can’t help but miss him.
So far my life has been less than flowery for me. At least not to what I can achieve. Feeling constantly under-used and getting used to a new culture has been whoozy for me to say the least. But for the time being, it’ll have to do. Awaiting to rebuild my life block by block.
Sometimes I just wish I had a clear vision of my future. To know my purpose in life. And to be able to live it without judgement. Without having to deal with the expectations and ultimately disappointments of peers and others. But I guess I’ll have to grow into my own skin to feel comfortable in it. And to be confident in life.
This year, I hope to be able to live life. To do what I really like. To read and to enjoy art. To take up painting again. Maybe in future to travel. To live.
